Mum, you suffered so badly but you bore it so bravely. All those times I came to you and we would sit in silence and just hold hands, then we would put our feet up and listen to the music and nod off together. It was such a precious time. I wanted so badly to make it all go away for you, but I couldn't . Sometimes the pain of losing you the way I did is just unbearable. I miss you everyday and would give anything just to see you smile one more time, just to reach out and touch you one more time. I know that you are watching over me though. Guess what mum, I am going to be a grandma again, today. Wish you could have seen me being a 'grandma'. We were going to enjoy it together weren't we ? Look at how lovely Ava our little granddaughter is, isn't she gorgeous mum. Love you so much mum x